Thank God for the new year..
It's been long since I last blogged.. The only thing I can say is Thank God for the year.. This year, I have a lot of plans and before talking about it, I will summarize my past few days shortly and hopefully I can post up the respective photos very soon.. 21Jan, I went to ShengSiong with mummy and grandmummy. 22Jan, I dyed my hair back to black. 23Jan, I went to help out at Surfer Paradise. 25-27Jan, I was at my family chalet. That's what I did in this few days.
Talking about Year 2009. I have decided not to return to Boon Lay Secondary considering the fact that I don't bear to part with my so called pride. I will re-take O level Elementary Mathematics as a private candidate and for the rest of my year, I will work. I know this is perhaps a bad decision but I still decided to do it this way. I cannot stand the fact that when I go back to school I will face 3 kind of people. 1) People like Miss Wee Khim Leng. She irritates me by looking at me with her eyes despising me. 2) People who asks me "why come back?? you shouldn't come back! waste time!"3) People who despises me in their heart or people who just shows it out. I'm sick and tired of these people and having to answer questions like "Why you come back? Fail ar?" I just can't bear to part with my ego and so called pride can. I admit, I'm not the kind of people who will humble themselves to get what they want. And I admit, I'm not someone of good temper although I have a good nature.
So, my 2009 resolution is to: 1) Take God seriously in my life.
2) Mend my relationships with my family
3) Really try not to be in any debt
4) Really study for O level E-maths
5) Work constantly to last for the year
6) Really try to lose weight for Sis's wedding
Anyways, I really am sad over my postings (By the way, I did not get into any Polytechnics and I am not going to appeal.)so people, please don't ask me about it anymore. I am not going back to Boon Lay Secondary School for lessons anymore and thats it. I am serious this time round.
what we could have been, 9:44 AM.
Finally. 18/01/2009..
I have been having almost sleepless nights this past few days just because I'm trying to upload all the pictures I've taken with my sister's digital camera. Ever since my sister lent me her camera, I've been taking pictures every now and then. Today, I went out with Chiali and Charis. We went to Bugis to shop for Chinese New Year Clothes. We shopped for the whole day and took Neo-Print twice and were very high over it. We took damn lots of photos and went for high tea as well. ii will be uploading the pictures very soon. As for now, I'm really lazy to post up the pictures.
I just discovered that after all.. I don't like you. Maybe the infatuation has died off.. I will no longer keep pondering about your actions and keep noticing your everything. Besides that, I am not going to look for places to fit me in. So what if I'm not in that gang? I don't care about it anymore. I want to be very free. Anyways, I'm FREE.
what we could have been, 9:06 AM.
16/01/2009
Today I met up with Charis, Chiali, Michelle and HuiJuan for lunch before going to CO in school. We ate at Long John Silver and it was quite fun with them. After eating, we went back to school for CO. I sat behind the CO and took some photos of the whole CO. The day was quite enjoyable actually..
They are all so shy..
I really love my juniors
They never knew that I took a picture of them.
what we could have been, 7:04 AM.
15/01/2009
Mummy bought me many things today. She bought me shorts, shoes and blanket! My favorite thing from these are the SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS BLANKET! It's really touchable and most importantly, it's really really cute!
you see! the spongebob is so cute!
My sister is actually quite cute..
My mum too!
what we could have been, 6:31 AM.
14/01/2009
Seeing SimYee so sad about her results, I decided to take her out with the 2 other good friend for a meal at Sakae. I treat her! That's like so nice of me when me myself also failed E-Maths. We went for the 60 mins. lunch buffet and had quite a lot of fun. After that, SimYee still didn't feel any happier so we went to the arcade at Jurong Point to find joy. We did at last made her laugh and after that laugh we had to go home.. I went to look for SZ before going to ShiHui's house to take some books in preparations for the worst scenario which I know will not happen. That's my day...
Joselin is just too happy.
SimYee looked as if she ate all those..
We really have fun here..
what we could have been, 5:47 AM.
ii always get the same results when ii think of ue.. is it really true that iim giving ue false hope?? is it true that ue really like miie? ii doubt so.. ii dun wish to believe at all.. and ii dun want to believe.. thinking of ue make miie feel so heavy hearted.. ii decided not to 自作多情. maybe ue dropped the wrong hint. ii shall not bother about it anymore.. iim afraid. and ii doubt my heart now..
what we could have been, 2:09 AM.
12/01/09
O level Results Release
everyone is just so tensed up..
My Results aren't good..
Mathematic. the thorn in my flesh..
Mercury House is loved
what we could have been, 1:25 AM.
11/01/09
ShiLei's Birthday Party
my beloved eileen and miie
Hes Dinesh. My good friend.
They are just slacking away...
ShiLei's 2kg cake
Happy Birthday!
Overview
She's definitely hiding..
what we could have been, 1:09 AM.
Again, a few days passed.. and thank God for pulling me through them.
Ever since I've gotten back my results, my heart have been heavy.. People think that I'm actually okay with the result but .. it wasn't what people think..
Anyways, I've applied for both admitting to Polytechnic and returning to school for Sec 5 education. This is my choice, I will not regret. This few days, I mourn over my results but there are people out there having even worser results than me. I really don't know what to say to them and .. I really don't know how to express my feelings now. I'm super duper confused, irritated and neglected .. somehow..
what we could have been, 12:06 AM.
The Lord pulled me through the day..
11 Jan 2009 ---> ii went to ShiLei's Birthday Party! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHILEI! It was somewhat fun, i got to talk to Dinesh and friends. It's been at least 2 months since i last saw them! After the party, Dinesh, XY, Dinesh friend n miie went off to drink under the block. Only Dinesh, XY and me were drinking. I was almost drunk that day.. I took a lot of photos but it's now stuck in my battery flat camera. I will upload them as soon as possible.
12 Jan 2009 --> i got back my O level's results.. I'm happy about it yet unhappy about it. Mixed feelings.. anyways, I think very soon, you people may see me once again in Boon Lay Secondary School uniform but not as an express student but a Normal Academic student. Not that I despise that . Just that I wonder how can I be so thick skinned to go back. Never Mind, I must show that Wee Kim Leng that I too can pass maths!
what we could have been, 8:10 PM.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Today. is a day the lord have made but it wasn't really a fantastic one.
This morning, I woke up really late. So late that I am late to meet up with HuiChing. The reason for meeting her is I am going back to school to give people things.
After I reach school. I went over to give out things and headed off to Jurong Point with the whole bunch of people. [HuiChing, Michelle, Charis, Chiali, Aitheng, Desmond, XD, GuoJie, Aloysius, JianSen, YongXiang, ZhengYu, YiTing, Waikim] should say I left out anyone. So sorry, we simply have to many people at that point.
Actually wanted to eat at LongJohnSilver but somehow in the end did not eat. Anyways. we headed off to Singapore Polytechnic(SP) shortly after and some stuff happened so wasn't really happy but somehow I go cheered up anyway. Then I headed down to NgeeAnn Polytechnic(NP) with a smaller group of people [Desmond, XD, GuoJie and Aloysius] as the others were going to Vilson's place. It was quite fun there as there were really many jokes around and I was really comforted about some stuff. It wasn't a wasted trip after all.
I'm so afraid that I might fall in love with you. Am I giving you false hope or are you giving me false hope? Your actions really give me hope yet I'm afraid to love. I'm afraid it's one-sided love. I really am afraid.
what we could have been, 7:30 AM.
Custom Countdowns &
MySpace Layouts090109 was my 1st day of work at Lot1 BEGA outlet.
It was simply.. tiring..
All I did was shelving clothes, hanging clothes on to the hanger..
But.. I will continue doing that because I find that I can still take it.
I will change my job when I feel that it's boring.
Tomorrow, I will be going to school for CO again. But not really long. Just to take textbook from Kaarthigan then pass it to YongXiang and give out some letters. It shouldn't take long. Then, I will go back home and so call wait for time then go out to meet HuiChing at Dover before going to Vilson's house.
I will be taking my results back and I cannot hide my overwhelming fear of the outcome especially when people say that my English should be alright and I will pass it. I may sound confident but there is still fear in me. ShiLei invited me to her birthday party.. I should be attending. Hope that my extraordinary8 will be going, then I will not feel left out. Now, I really don't know what to get for her birthday. My Good friends might not be going. They are working I guess. Left me. Luckily, I still have SimYee, PeiYi and the rest.
But the person I don't feel like seeing is attending as well. Although it won't stop me from attending the party somehow, it's still awkward.
what we could have been, 8:01 AM.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Today is yet another day the lord had made! =)
Anyways, I forgot to mention yesterday that I am going to get back my O levels results very soon. How soon? 12 January! Counting down 4days from now! This is definitely freaking me out!
Back to today, I went NP for their open house today with my good friends (w/o SimYee. Yes, she's working again) and YingJia. =D Due to some reasons, I did not take any photo. But, the experience wasn't really great anyway.
I do have courses in mind to take now but I really need to depend on my results now. The whole cohort now is kind of nervous once again..
After the trip to NP, Good friends + YingJia went to Ben10 to have high tea! It took us a few hours just on high tea alone! We talked a lot and played games. The game is I call Matthew Cheng and tell him I liked him for very long already. Luckily for me, he didn't believe. Anyways, today was fun and I really love talking. haha!
what we could have been, 6:29 AM.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Today again indeed is the day the Lord has made!HAHAHA!
Today, I went Jurong Point with my 3 other good friends for breakfast and walk walk..
I ate Big Breakfast and that is a first time in don't know how many months. I only know for the past few months my breakfast at Macdonald's are always McGriddles with Egg Meal.
Anyways, today was quite a peaceful and fun day. I went shopping with Joselin alone without feel awkard! I can now strike topics with her! Yeah! Actually, she is also quite fun to be with . Just that I have never realised that..
By the way, this few days I'm addicted to this game named "Ming Xing San Que Yi 明星三缺一". It is a MahJiong Game.. So now, I know how to play MahJiong already! Just that I'm more familiar to Cantonese one. The one with 13 tiles instead of 16.. heh. It's really fun okay!
what we could have been, 11:57 PM.
hmm. ii slept the whole day today..
life without school = lifeless..
ii miss those days when I woke up early in the morning in order to reach school on time and spending time in school with all my very 'bai mu' classmates and friends.. people like .. my extraordinary8... my FM - SimYee & ShiHui and my new found good friend - Joselin.. Although I still go out with them, I still miss crapping with them in school.. also with WeiYang they all.. Crapping with them are all so fun..
what we could have been, 8:46 AM.
Indeed today is the day the Lord has made.
Today, I woke up real late because I slept only in the morning at 4 a.m..
Luckily for me, I don't have any prearranged appointments.
When I woke up, I saw a message on my phone telling me that she [HuiPing] is going to Central to see Mayday. So, I replied with a positive answer and started preparing to leave home to meet her.
Not long after I reached the place, she arrived and damn, the place was packed. FengGuat was there with us as well. She is there to have her album autographed.
Mayday was really good, they were not late for long. Only a little while. It's quite disappointing that GuanYou wasn't there but overall, they are really very handsome. They did not sing, they just gave autographs. Although I do not have a very good camera but I still manage to take a few pictures of them ..
look at the crowd..
It's so crowded can..
A-Shin is so handsome ...
They are just all so handsome..
what we could have been, 11:30 PM.
Second post of the year.. I'm going to talk about the reason for the choice of URL I am now.
One of my New Year resolution is go back to be a girl. Except for occasionally being called a boy by my Extraordinary8. Anyways. I also wanna so call say out what I did this past few days.
After the first Combined Practice of the year, here comes the CCA open house for the Sec. Ones. to choose their CCAs wisely and I of course went for it to tell the Students and Parents choosing Chinese Orchestra is a wise choice.
I was supposed to meet with the C. Family which belonged to HC they all for breakfast at 630 am but their member was late for an hour without picking up any calls despite much bombing on his handphone. So, we decided pay him a visit at his house lest he wake up late. The 2 beloved CAL - HC and AiTheng could not find his block and we ended with going to 2 wrong blocks before we reached the CAB - Vilson's house.
By the way, another New Year resolution I have is to type good English . so please don't mind me.
When we reach his house, we called his phone, bang the door and ring his bell for many many times before he opened up with a very unwilling face. Seeing us at his door, he opened up and went to wash up for school.
After we all reached school, we start preparing for the performance and also the booth. During the whole affair, for some reasons I was really angry and almost exploded. At that moment, I really wondered to myself "Why should I be so 'pin ming' when the others just simply don't care?" I was actually sleeping in the classroom and HC asked me to go outside and help. I asked her "Why ask me to go out" and she say if I don't CO is goner. Maybe that's why I so 'pin ming' about it.
Anyways, after the whole thing, I went out to lunch with the C family and ended up cooking at Vilson's house since that there is simply just too much people in Jurong Point. After eating lunch, the guys played Mah Jiong and the girls went in to Vilson's room to talk. I only heard part of what the girls talked because I was sleeping. I did not take much photos on this day because firstly I do not have a camera, Secondly I do not have the mood? Anyways photos are really limited.
what we could have been, 9:35 AM.
A new year symbolizes a new beginning.
This year will be a whole new chapter of my life yet not forgetting what made me during my four years in Boon Lay Secondary School.
Today I went for Boon Lay Secondary School Chinese Orchestra very first Combined Practice. The atmosphere are totally different. There is no longer rebellious actions but only action of being funny. They may be noisy and stuff but we can now see that they are just trying to be funny and as I get to understand them, I go along with their jokes and they can really be fun to be with. I seriously treasure them though I will still feel insecure.
My one and only beloved CO.
what we could have been, 8:19 AM.