Wednesday, February 25, 2009
We are still not talking..
He is the last person I will want to quarrel with.
My best friend. Is this friendship of ours going to crack?
He is the last person I will want to quarrel with.
My best friend. Is this friendship of ours going to crack?
what we could have been, 6:25 AM.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Yesterday, I so called quarreled with this person whom I have not quarreled with before. It's quite shocking that I quarreled with him. This is the first time I'm angry with him .. and .. It's not even about us..
This thing is complicated. Anyway, I hope it will be fine in a few days. He's not the petty kind but I am. So... perhaps, it's me who created the trouble.. Anyway, I didn't go to school today. No particular reason why.
This thing is complicated. Anyway, I hope it will be fine in a few days. He's not the petty kind but I am. So... perhaps, it's me who created the trouble.. Anyway, I didn't go to school today. No particular reason why.
what we could have been, 9:34 PM.
I'm getting lazier and lazier to on my laptop this few days..
I think I did do things during this few days..
16/2/2009
I went to Jurong Point with Jeslyn and did not attend House Practice. I am beginning to lose faith in Mercury already. My patience are kind of used up by that bunch of Sec 1 maggots.
17/2/2009
I went to Jeslyn's place and discussed some stuff with her.. I did not went to school that day. Somehow I woke up only at 2:50 P.M. in the afternoon.
The rest of the week was kind of boring and mundane.
Recently I read the book "5 people you meet in heaven" there is this quote in the book that says: "Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire. ... Sometimes, when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."
It's really quite true. Sacrifice indeed is a part of life. No matter it's big or small. Just like a mother work just to give her son education. Or a friend forsake KFC just because another wanted Macdonald's. Many a times we sacrifice abit here and there and we feel really demeaned but we simply have no bloody idea that others are actually sacrificing for us as well every now and then. That's life.
Anyway, I saw this aunty on bus 99 on 18/02/2009 begging for money from commuters. I, myself did not give her money because I simply didn't have any with me.
I took her picture without her knowing. I know that I'm bad.
She's begging for money.
I think I did do things during this few days..
16/2/2009
I went to Jurong Point with Jeslyn and did not attend House Practice. I am beginning to lose faith in Mercury already. My patience are kind of used up by that bunch of Sec 1 maggots.
17/2/2009
I went to Jeslyn's place and discussed some stuff with her.. I did not went to school that day. Somehow I woke up only at 2:50 P.M. in the afternoon.
The rest of the week was kind of boring and mundane.
Recently I read the book "5 people you meet in heaven" there is this quote in the book that says: "Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire. ... Sometimes, when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."
It's really quite true. Sacrifice indeed is a part of life. No matter it's big or small. Just like a mother work just to give her son education. Or a friend forsake KFC just because another wanted Macdonald's. Many a times we sacrifice abit here and there and we feel really demeaned but we simply have no bloody idea that others are actually sacrificing for us as well every now and then. That's life.
Anyway, I saw this aunty on bus 99 on 18/02/2009 begging for money from commuters. I, myself did not give her money because I simply didn't have any with me.
I took her picture without her knowing. I know that I'm bad.
She's begging for money.
what we could have been, 6:26 AM.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
I've moved on.
I've gotten up and ready to start things afresh. After all, it's worth doing all this for my own future isn't it?
Anyways, I've done a lot this few days. I've always updated the bad things but there is always something cheering me up.
06/02/2009
I went for Cellgroup meeting and a Reunion Dinner with them after the meeting.
Waiting for food and drinks. Our joking engine haven't really started.. so we looked kind of bored.
Thanks for serving! =)
This is so cool!
08/02/2009
I went to Tian Jing Lou at Chinatown with my family to lou hei (cantonese for eating yusheng). After which we went to the nearby dessert shop to have dessert. It was really nice. The Peanut Paste there is very very smooth.
Our 'Lou Hei'
My sister and future brother-in-law
14/02/2009
I celebrated Valentine's day with JJ Lin and my darling CO juniors. I went for CO in the morning and then slacked at Aitheng's house before going off to Jurong Point to 'date' JJ Lin. I couldn't take good view pictures at all... That's like 'arrgh'! It was really crowded at Jurong Point and people kept pushing me. Definitely not a good experience...
I was at the second level so I couldn't really get a good view..
This was what me and the others ate for dinner..This bento is delicious. =)
I've gotten up and ready to start things afresh. After all, it's worth doing all this for my own future isn't it?
Anyways, I've done a lot this few days. I've always updated the bad things but there is always something cheering me up.
06/02/2009
I went for Cellgroup meeting and a Reunion Dinner with them after the meeting.
Waiting for food and drinks. Our joking engine haven't really started.. so we looked kind of bored.
Thanks for serving! =)
This is so cool!
08/02/2009
I went to Tian Jing Lou at Chinatown with my family to lou hei (cantonese for eating yusheng). After which we went to the nearby dessert shop to have dessert. It was really nice. The Peanut Paste there is very very smooth.
Our 'Lou Hei'
My sister and future brother-in-law
14/02/2009
I celebrated Valentine's day with JJ Lin and my darling CO juniors. I went for CO in the morning and then slacked at Aitheng's house before going off to Jurong Point to 'date' JJ Lin. I couldn't take good view pictures at all... That's like 'arrgh'! It was really crowded at Jurong Point and people kept pushing me. Definitely not a good experience...
I was at the second level so I couldn't really get a good view..
This was what me and the others ate for dinner..This bento is delicious. =)
what we could have been, 3:25 AM.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Okay, I'm totally knocked out now. I dread going back to school and waking up every single morning. I always start my day badly and the whole day is ruin just like that. Although my classmates are quite nice to me but I just don't like school.
I really don't know what to do now. I'm afraid of going back to class because I still the lazy me. I really don't know what to do..
I really don't know what to do now. I'm afraid of going back to class because I still the lazy me. I really don't know what to do..
what we could have been, 5:25 AM.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
After much indecisiveness, I'm back in school again. Yes, as a Sec. 4 repeat..
It's been 2 days since I started school and it is not getting any better. Although the teachers are good and my classmates look friendly, I am not at all attracted to school.
I'm now also participating in SYF for CO as well and I feel that my cello skills are really getting from bad to worse.
Frankly speaking, I am really unhappy about going back to school and I despise the fact that I'm back to school. However, there's nothing I can do about it. It's my future isn't it? I have to put down my pride and strive on.
I will get back on my feet very soon despite being unhappy. Also, currently I have NO feelings for anyone. Whatsoever infactuation for people have already died off. Don't assume anything anymore!
It's been 2 days since I started school and it is not getting any better. Although the teachers are good and my classmates look friendly, I am not at all attracted to school.
I'm now also participating in SYF for CO as well and I feel that my cello skills are really getting from bad to worse.
Frankly speaking, I am really unhappy about going back to school and I despise the fact that I'm back to school. However, there's nothing I can do about it. It's my future isn't it? I have to put down my pride and strive on.
I will get back on my feet very soon despite being unhappy. Also, currently I have NO feelings for anyone. Whatsoever infactuation for people have already died off. Don't assume anything anymore!
what we could have been, 5:15 AM.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
I really feel as if I'm going to die.
I'm really really suffocating.. Yes, the decision lies with me and it is very hard to make. I know I am very indecisive in this but it concerns my life. I really need a very clear mind and a straight mindset. Everyone has been giving me suggestions and ideas, I truly appreciate that but it is really confusing and I really don't know what to do. My mum keep forcing me to make a decision and I really can't come out with an answer yet. I'm really really frustrated now.
What am I choosing about? 1) Go back to Secondary School. 2) Go to MDIS. 3) Work for the rest of the year and retake the subjects I needed.
Like I say, my pride is stopping me from choosing 1.
My financial situation is stopping me from choosing 2. and I found out that I will learn much lesser things than those in Polytechnics if I were to choose 2.
Choosing 3. will make me lose focus in studies and I'm super not sure whether this is harm me or not.
I'm going to Ngee Ann Polytechnic tomorrow to try my luck. I don't know whether I'm able to appeal sucessfully .
I'm really really lost now..... What should I do?
My mum is anxious, so am I! It's my life, I even more anxious about it! But this will last me years.. this decision is the turning point of my life.. I really cannot afford to make any mistake here or I'll be wasting my precious time.
I was once being laughed at for planning my tertiary life early but now that shown that it not early enough. I'm now lost. I really don't know what to do.. Discussion brought me nowhere..
I'm really really suffocating.. Yes, the decision lies with me and it is very hard to make. I know I am very indecisive in this but it concerns my life. I really need a very clear mind and a straight mindset. Everyone has been giving me suggestions and ideas, I truly appreciate that but it is really confusing and I really don't know what to do. My mum keep forcing me to make a decision and I really can't come out with an answer yet. I'm really really frustrated now.
What am I choosing about? 1) Go back to Secondary School. 2) Go to MDIS. 3) Work for the rest of the year and retake the subjects I needed.
Like I say, my pride is stopping me from choosing 1.
My financial situation is stopping me from choosing 2. and I found out that I will learn much lesser things than those in Polytechnics if I were to choose 2.
Choosing 3. will make me lose focus in studies and I'm super not sure whether this is harm me or not.
I'm going to Ngee Ann Polytechnic tomorrow to try my luck. I don't know whether I'm able to appeal sucessfully .
I'm really really lost now..... What should I do?
My mum is anxious, so am I! It's my life, I even more anxious about it! But this will last me years.. this decision is the turning point of my life.. I really cannot afford to make any mistake here or I'll be wasting my precious time.
I was once being laughed at for planning my tertiary life early but now that shown that it not early enough. I'm now lost. I really don't know what to do.. Discussion brought me nowhere..
what we could have been, 8:30 AM.
