Sunday, February 1, 2009
I really feel as if I'm going to die.
I'm really really suffocating.. Yes, the decision lies with me and it is very hard to make. I know I am very indecisive in this but it concerns my life. I really need a very clear mind and a straight mindset. Everyone has been giving me suggestions and ideas, I truly appreciate that but it is really confusing and I really don't know what to do. My mum keep forcing me to make a decision and I really can't come out with an answer yet. I'm really really frustrated now.
What am I choosing about? 1) Go back to Secondary School. 2) Go to MDIS. 3) Work for the rest of the year and retake the subjects I needed.
Like I say, my pride is stopping me from choosing 1.
My financial situation is stopping me from choosing 2. and I found out that I will learn much lesser things than those in Polytechnics if I were to choose 2.
Choosing 3. will make me lose focus in studies and I'm super not sure whether this is harm me or not.
I'm going to Ngee Ann Polytechnic tomorrow to try my luck. I don't know whether I'm able to appeal sucessfully .
I'm really really lost now..... What should I do?
My mum is anxious, so am I! It's my life, I even more anxious about it! But this will last me years.. this decision is the turning point of my life.. I really cannot afford to make any mistake here or I'll be wasting my precious time.
I was once being laughed at for planning my tertiary life early but now that shown that it not early enough. I'm now lost. I really don't know what to do.. Discussion brought me nowhere..
I'm really really suffocating.. Yes, the decision lies with me and it is very hard to make. I know I am very indecisive in this but it concerns my life. I really need a very clear mind and a straight mindset. Everyone has been giving me suggestions and ideas, I truly appreciate that but it is really confusing and I really don't know what to do. My mum keep forcing me to make a decision and I really can't come out with an answer yet. I'm really really frustrated now.
What am I choosing about? 1) Go back to Secondary School. 2) Go to MDIS. 3) Work for the rest of the year and retake the subjects I needed.
Like I say, my pride is stopping me from choosing 1.
My financial situation is stopping me from choosing 2. and I found out that I will learn much lesser things than those in Polytechnics if I were to choose 2.
Choosing 3. will make me lose focus in studies and I'm super not sure whether this is harm me or not.
I'm going to Ngee Ann Polytechnic tomorrow to try my luck. I don't know whether I'm able to appeal sucessfully .
I'm really really lost now..... What should I do?
My mum is anxious, so am I! It's my life, I even more anxious about it! But this will last me years.. this decision is the turning point of my life.. I really cannot afford to make any mistake here or I'll be wasting my precious time.
I was once being laughed at for planning my tertiary life early but now that shown that it not early enough. I'm now lost. I really don't know what to do.. Discussion brought me nowhere..
what we could have been, 8:30 AM.
