Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Yes. It's 3:36 A.M now yet I'm still in front of the laptop.. I just couldn't sleep. I have this anxiety in me no one can ever comprehend. I just feel so helpless at times wanting to give up studies but I simply cannot afford to do it. I was just blog hopping hoping that I would feel tired and pack off to bed. I simply just can't .. Recently a lot a lot of things happened. I now have an addition to my 'family' a new brother - Yong Shang Zheng. Many people don't understand my rationale for being so good to him. Somehow. I have my own reasons. Sometimes, venting on the blog is something that really helps me a lot. I don't know why.
I have an exam later at 8 am yet here I am blogging. I just want to blog my anxiety down. I'm seriously afraid . Afraid of failing E-math, SZ failing his subjects and also my mum's poor health. I really don't know how to say. I really feel that I might have depression.. I'm experiencing those symptoms now. Somehow.
I'm going to try to sleep. Hopefully my anxiety will just go away. :(
I have an exam later at 8 am yet here I am blogging. I just want to blog my anxiety down. I'm seriously afraid . Afraid of failing E-math, SZ failing his subjects and also my mum's poor health. I really don't know how to say. I really feel that I might have depression.. I'm experiencing those symptoms now. Somehow.
I'm going to try to sleep. Hopefully my anxiety will just go away. :(
what we could have been, 3:36 AM.
