Thursday, July 30, 2009
沒有愛情遺言
沒有一句再見
偶像劇裡的情節
竟然會真實上演
你摟著她的肩
對我視而不見
這個殘忍的畫面
讓我痛到極點
突然不想再看見
你敷衍的那張臉
不想聽你說的謊言
我狠狠哭了一整個冬天
把你留在昨天做紀念
一個人反反覆覆
去想去沈澱
終於了解
愛狠狠哭完的那一天
我也該忘記你的臉
我就在一念之間 看見了春天
這世界仍然還是很美
我一個人靜靜聽著音樂
偶爾想起你還是會掉眼淚
淚水全都是成長的體會
沒有一句再見
偶像劇裡的情節
竟然會真實上演
你摟著她的肩
對我視而不見
這個殘忍的畫面
讓我痛到極點
突然不想再看見
你敷衍的那張臉
不想聽你說的謊言
我狠狠哭了一整個冬天
把你留在昨天做紀念
一個人反反覆覆
去想去沈澱
終於了解
愛狠狠哭完的那一天
我也該忘記你的臉
我就在一念之間 看見了春天
這世界仍然還是很美
我一個人靜靜聽著音樂
偶爾想起你還是會掉眼淚
淚水全都是成長的體會
what we could have been, 7:03 AM.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
无法可修饰的一对手
带出温暖永远在背后
总是罗嗦始终关注
不懂珍惜太内疚
沉醉于音阶她不赞赏
母亲的爱却永远未退让
决心冲开心中挣扎
亲恩终可报答
春风化雨暖透我的心
一生眷顾无言地送赠
是你多么温馨的目光
教我坚毅望着前路
叮嘱我跌倒不应放弃
没法解释怎可报尽亲恩
爱意宽大是无限
请准我说声真的爱你
Thanks mummy. You know that I'm in very low spirits recently yet you are still so understanding and even let me sleep in on a weekday. love you mummy!
带出温暖永远在背后
总是罗嗦始终关注
不懂珍惜太内疚
沉醉于音阶她不赞赏
母亲的爱却永远未退让
决心冲开心中挣扎
亲恩终可报答
春风化雨暖透我的心
一生眷顾无言地送赠
是你多么温馨的目光
教我坚毅望着前路
叮嘱我跌倒不应放弃
没法解释怎可报尽亲恩
爱意宽大是无限
请准我说声真的爱你
Thanks mummy. You know that I'm in very low spirits recently yet you are still so understanding and even let me sleep in on a weekday. love you mummy!
what we could have been, 8:30 AM.
Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
what we could have been, 6:31 AM.
Monday, July 27, 2009
门关紧了 但眼泪不会锁
该好了 可是心 还是痛的
说过了 几千次算了
又想像 可能会复合
我表面似乎痊癒了
某部分却像残废了
又圆了的月亮 照亮我隐藏的倔强
提醒我去化妆 把以後活得更漂亮
又圆了的月亮 说改变会带来成长
旋转的 地球上 没有人能不动站在 一个地方
梦醒了 像旅行 都结束了
纪念品呢 谁粗心 弄掉了
到哪了 做什麽 是否记得
相机里 两个人闹着
让微笑 美过了夜色
没有他 以为该寂寞
但世界一样在唱歌
又圆了 的月亮 照亮我隐藏的倔强
提醒我 去化妆 把以後活得更漂亮
又圆了 的月亮 说改变 会带来成长
旋转的 地球上 肯转身总有新故事 值得盼望
没有他 以为该寂寞 但世界一样在唱歌
又圆了 的月亮 照亮我隐藏的倔强
提醒我 去化妆 把以後活得更漂亮
又圆了 的月亮 说改变会带来成长
旋转的 地球上 肯转身总有新故事 值得盼望
用原谅 去遗忘
what we could have been, 4:53 AM.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Things sort of changed for the better.
I no longer cry is not because the feeling is gone .
I no longer cry is because this is no longer a problem to me.
I've succeeded . I've let things go.
I sort of no longer care much about things concerning you.
Though somehow out of habit I still will. I'm curbing it.
Soon enough, I no longer will.
I've released myself.
I no longer cry is not because the feeling is gone .
I no longer cry is because this is no longer a problem to me.
I've succeeded . I've let things go.
I sort of no longer care much about things concerning you.
Though somehow out of habit I still will. I'm curbing it.
Soon enough, I no longer will.
I've released myself.
what we could have been, 4:48 AM.
Monday, July 20, 2009
iim really angry
iim really upset.
everytime its only me who care about your studies.
im not going to care anymore.
its your business to study or not study
you succeeded. now, even if ii watch shows that will normally make me cry ii still didn cry.
not even tear.
you succeeded.
i hate you .
iim really upset.
everytime its only me who care about your studies.
im not going to care anymore.
its your business to study or not study
you succeeded. now, even if ii watch shows that will normally make me cry ii still didn cry.
not even tear.
you succeeded.
i hate you .
what we could have been, 6:35 AM.
Perhaps, all is lost. and i no longer cry .
i'm giving up.
i'm dead serious this time.
my heart have hardened and i no longer cry.
i'm giving up.
i'm dead serious this time.
my heart have hardened and i no longer cry.
what we could have been, 4:01 AM.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Yesterday, I didn't make it to school cause the medicine worked its way through the night to the morning. It was more of a moodless day until cellgroup. We celebrated Hui Juan's birthday. It was fun. but... he lied to me again ... he said he would come .. but in the end he didn't .. ii have nothing to say .. i can only say that i trusted him too much ..
what we could have been, 8:43 PM.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
I'm sick. Very sick. Asthma kept coming after I cough a lot. Left school half way today due to Asthma. Just now when I had Asthma, I cried. Simply because I panic. When I panic, my Asthma get worse and it definately isn't good when I had flu and sore throat at the same time. Doctor's fee cost me 62 bucks. Although it was paid by Daddy but I still felt the pain of parting with the money. I have a lot of medicine this time and have a 2 days MC. I also bought a new inhaler just in case.
Your reply to her was just a short 'orh' ii didn't know what it mean but I have nothing to say about it. I don't want to read too much into it anymore. If you care, you will care. If you don't, you will not. Maybe things are always so simple just that I've viewed it with complications.
Your reply to her was just a short 'orh' ii didn't know what it mean but I have nothing to say about it. I don't want to read too much into it anymore. If you care, you will care. If you don't, you will not. Maybe things are always so simple just that I've viewed it with complications.
what we could have been, 3:20 AM.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Today, things between us turned for the worst. It's actually not a bad thing either. Now that I feel that I'm beginning to hate him that much. I don't have to care about him anymore. Even if he were to turn to those stupid gangsterism path I also don't care.
You don't want to tell me your thoughts, so be it. I've already gotten used to you not telling me. It makes no difference for me. So what if I want to be that evil person? Being good doesn't benefit me either so why must I work so hard to be an angel? I don't see why I should work so hard for you. I can work hard for others but not you. at least for now. I can act as if I don't know you when I'm on the streets because I simply don't give a damn about you anymore.
You don't want to tell me your thoughts, so be it. I've already gotten used to you not telling me. It makes no difference for me. So what if I want to be that evil person? Being good doesn't benefit me either so why must I work so hard to be an angel? I don't see why I should work so hard for you. I can work hard for others but not you. at least for now. I can act as if I don't know you when I'm on the streets because I simply don't give a damn about you anymore.
what we could have been, 2:15 AM.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Despite my many times of inner vow to give up helping him, take back my own time for myself. I sort of failed.
However, he is having a good time 'giving me back' my time. Perhaps. I'm just too nosy. Perhaps I should just really disipline myself to not care about him.
Maybe... I should do just that.
I'm not going to hesitate anymore. No more dragging.
I'm not going to give him a damn about who he contacts, what he do etc.
However, he is having a good time 'giving me back' my time. Perhaps. I'm just too nosy. Perhaps I should just really disipline myself to not care about him.
Maybe... I should do just that.
I'm not going to hesitate anymore. No more dragging.
I'm not going to give him a damn about who he contacts, what he do etc.
what we could have been, 3:14 AM.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
我放棄了.
我真的放棄了.
我不要再讓自己難過了.
我也不需要人來管我
你已經不再需要我了. 我也不會再有任何留戀.
這一生裡.. 我只感覺得到別人比我重要的多了. 我呢?
一點都不.
就算你說你不會跟我脫離姊弟關係的. 那又怎麼樣?
做你姊姊. 讓你利用?
對不起，我是自私的。
我不會那麼樣的犧牲自己。
我就是這麼壞的一個人。
那又怎樣？
就沒怎樣。
我決定了。
我要做個自私鬼。
我不會再對你那麼好了。
那是我心中永遠的結。
我真的放棄了.
我不要再讓自己難過了.
我也不需要人來管我
你已經不再需要我了. 我也不會再有任何留戀.
這一生裡.. 我只感覺得到別人比我重要的多了. 我呢?
一點都不.
就算你說你不會跟我脫離姊弟關係的. 那又怎麼樣?
做你姊姊. 讓你利用?
對不起，我是自私的。
我不會那麼樣的犧牲自己。
我就是這麼壞的一個人。
那又怎樣？
就沒怎樣。
我決定了。
我要做個自私鬼。
我不會再對你那麼好了。
那是我心中永遠的結。
what we could have been, 3:56 AM.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Holidays ended and School have started.
In the past few days, I still have not gotten over holiday mood especially when my free periods are all scheduled on the first 2 to 3 periods of my lessons from Monday to Wednesday.
Singapore is now considered as an affected country and all schools are taking temperatures everyday. I kind of got used to it. (:
School is now repainted and I am no fan of those colours.
Though the past few days of school was slack, I found back my drive to study again. Just by thinking about my results this year, my tears will just flow down like rivers of living water. I don't want to live in regret anymore. I have got to study harder!
My issue with him is now put to an end with a positive ending and here comes my new 'trouble' - my studies.
I'm going to put up a timetable for myself very soon so that I can be organised and be effective. (:
我会加油的！
In the past few days, I still have not gotten over holiday mood especially when my free periods are all scheduled on the first 2 to 3 periods of my lessons from Monday to Wednesday.
Singapore is now considered as an affected country and all schools are taking temperatures everyday. I kind of got used to it. (:
School is now repainted and I am no fan of those colours.
Though the past few days of school was slack, I found back my drive to study again. Just by thinking about my results this year, my tears will just flow down like rivers of living water. I don't want to live in regret anymore. I have got to study harder!
My issue with him is now put to an end with a positive ending and here comes my new 'trouble' - my studies.
I'm going to put up a timetable for myself very soon so that I can be organised and be effective. (:
我会加油的！
what we could have been, 3:29 AM.
